Food journals

ok- I realize that if I really want to lose weight and achieve my goals I need to keep a food journal.  Can I just tell you how much I don't like doing this and how really, REALLY bad I am at it?  I can do it consistently for about half a day, period.  Then suddenly it is 4 days later and I am trying to remember what I ate and I can't so....

I keep trying and I am trying once again, but there is no 'easy' way for me to do this.  Not a notebook, not computer tracking, nothing.  I just need to have better discipline.  Period.

Anyone else?

12 miles

I am NOT going to say 12 miles today was easy, but it was a whole lot less difficult than the 18 last Saturday.  I am counting down Saturday runs to the marathon at this point.  Only 2 more really long ones left before THE REAL DEAL!  WOW!  It is starting to get close! 

I was talking with someone today and they mentioned being afraid they would be 'last' if the were to do a full marathon.  Ummm, SO?  I don't care one bit if I am last, I am FINISHING!  Even if it means I CRAWL across that finish line.  For me, this isn't any sort of speed issue whatsoever.  This is about endurance and completing 26.2 miles.

I went 18 miles today

Yes, I really went 18 miles.  I rocked the first 11 of them.  Then did pretty well for the next 3, then my legs just wouldn't move any faster than they were moving.  I felt GREAT.  Not winded, not tired, the bottom of my feet were sore and I had an new rubbed sore spot that will get body glide next time, but I just couldn't my legs to not plod along.  I took more walk time and am pretty sure I walked faster than I ran.  I don't know what it was, other than perhaps just the length of time I was out there.  Something about 4 hours being plenty long enough :).  For the first time though, I had the mantra going in my head.  Guess I need to find a better one, but this one DID get me through a couple of miles   Wondering if I EVER want to do full again.  Probably not, but I WILL finish this one and WILL keep running, because I do enjoy it.

The inspiration I needed today

Why am I doing this again?

So, I saw this quote and it pretty much summed up a bunch of stuff...

"One thing about racing is that it hurts. You better accept that from the beginning or you're not going anywhere." -Bob Kennedy, US 5000m record holder and first non-African under 13 minutes

Lately as I hobble out of bed and start the day stretching my Achilles, or when I lean and a muscle tells me it is sore, I have been wondering WHAT AM I THINKING!?!?!?. Not with any thought to stop, mind you, but more of a who is this person and where did she come from that thinks this is not only a good idea, but fun?

I have come to realize that is not sanity kicking in but self doubt.  The part of my brain that has been trained to tell me that I can't and I shouldn't try.  Well guess what, I am kicking THAT me to the curb!  I can, and I WILL!  I am going to feel like a rock star and do the hard stuff.  The things I have never done, but always dreamed of.  This is just the first step, my life has so many more things I want to do and accomplish.  Look out world, I am HERE!!!!